My name is Maureen Daniels and I am/was a dilated cardiomyopathy (DCM) patient for over 30 years. I developed cardiomyopathy at age 37, in 1985, and at that time, there was little specific drug treatment. I lived with the disease for 30 years, and was very blessed, as I was declining, to get a heart transplant in January 2017. Today I feel great and am doing fine. I also had two other siblings who developed the disease, and after genetic testing, we know that it was a genetic defect that caused DCM in my family.
It’s been my experience, and I think possibly my siblings also, that DCM affects not only our hearts, but also our emotions and mental health. One thing I noticed in my siblings during the onset of cardiomyopathy was some of the same emotional and mental effects that I had experienced too. I have not read much on this, but I had developed some depression before I was diagnosed with DCM. I had even seen a psychiatrist and been on medication, which I later stopped due to side effects, just a couple of months before my diagnosis. I also experienced some more of this over the years as the disease continued, though I worked full time, traveled in that work, etc.
Since I have seen the change in my emotions and mood when I was sick and now that I am well, I wonder if the depression, or sad mood, is part of the onset of symptoms that our body senses when it is not well. I felt frustration and loss at not being able to do all I wanted/needed to do, and worry about what that meant. I felt guilty that I was somehow not doing enough to feel better. Now that I know it wasn’t my “fault” for not enough stress control, lowering my expectations, not saying no enough, etc. (All these coping skills are important to practice). But it may not have changed the outcome a lot. And I am more relieved now to know this, but I wish I had known this years earlier.
What I have done over many years now is work on controlling fears, focusing on the present (mindfulness), exercising as I am able since that lifts mood, prayer and faith, connecting with family and friends who are supportive, and not isolating myself. It helped to have accurate information about my disease, status, and medication from my doctors and nurses, and not projecting into the future. I still work on learning and accepting my limits. I know I am doing the best I can.
What I share is just my story, but I do hope it might help others as well to realize that the invisibility of this disease and lack of awareness of its effects keep us and others from understanding its impact. We can learn to be kinder and gentler with ourselves and to live each day as well as we can, trusting God to help us as we need it.
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